Some of you know my history, ER's, hospital stays etc. My meds are locked in a safe. My husband gives me my meds for the day and hides the key. I found the key the other day. I have told NO ONE!! Just here and now is the first time I'm actually talking about it. I had an appt. with my therapist today, didn't tell her. I now have access to all of my pills again. I'm scared that I know where it is, I'm scared of what my family will do if they find out I know where it is. I'm scared I may do something dumb in a major depression. Any advise?
I don't know what to do. I guess that's not true, the right thing is to tell my husband. But I feel like I'm back in control of something in my life again. I don't want to relinquish that. I guess I want someone to validate my feelings and the reasonings behind them. That may or may not happen. I feel like we are a family here and I can take the criticism, but please be gentle.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
DX: ankylosing spondylitis, periferal neuropathy, chronic migraines/headaches, depression/panic attacks, bi-polar, hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, sleep apnea
RX: synthroid, estradiol, prozac, lamictal, inderal la, klonopin, seroquel, imiprimine, aspirin, (relpax, maxalt, phenergan, esgic plus, xanax, PRN for migraine)
Surgeries: hysterectomy 1997, tonsillectomy 2001, deviated septum 2005, cataracts (both eyes) 2006