Hey guys I am having a bad few days. I am on lexapro about
2 and a half weeks now I started on the 5mg and i am now on the 10mg.
I work shift work and I started back on my night shiftcycle on sunday gone and finished on the tuesday morning. On the Wednesday I had to mind my 7 month old daughter on my own I woke up having disturbing taughts. I used to get these about a few things and they were taughts of doin stuff that i would never actually do but the fact that they even came into my head upset me and made me panic. So thats one reason I get panic attacks the other is going places and doing stuff thats not in my comfort zone.
Anyway that morning I started to panic and worry that i couldnt mind my daughter on my own so i rang my parents who came down to me. We then went back to there house where i was fine.
I am really annoyed as I am worried I wont be a good parent and that i am not the same person i used to be its like my confidance is gone.
I am seeing a phsycho therapist however her husband had a brain hemorrhage about 3 weeks ago and I havnt seen her since then.
My parents are very supportive and have friends that work within mental illnesses. So they have said they are going to get this sorted for me. They called there friend who came the house and she talked with me she said she thinks cognitive behavioural therapist will work well for me and if not she is friends with the best psychiatrist in our country and she said she would get him to see me.
I was also giving 15 days worth of xanax from my doctor which are gone now and i have been told not to get anymore as they are addictive. This worries me as i think they realy helped me as well.
If I can hear some advice that would be great and also if anyone else on hear gets panic attack from disturbing taughts I would love to hear from you.