I already posted in another thread, but after reading a few other threads, I thought I should at least introduce myself since this seems to be a pretty close community. (:
I'm pretty new to anxiety/panic attacks, very new actually, and I'm hating every moment of it.
A little background:
A couple of months ago, I started feeling "unwell," for lack of a better word. Just a little off, not quite right, but not enough to go see a doctor. A couple of weeks later, I was working out - very lightly because I was a bit worried about not being completely healthy - and BAM! suddenly my heart rate shot up and scared the hell out of me.
I stopped, went home, paced around, drank a bunch of water, and eventually calmed down, and everything seemed more or less ok.
Another 2 weeks later and it returned. It was early in the morning, I was getting ready to go to a meeting, and slowly started feeling unwell. I took a shower and there went my heart rate again. Everything returned more or less to normal other "waves" of this unwell feeling coming back throughout the day. Next morning I started feeling sick again, and decided it was time to go the doctor.
He did some tests to rule out a heart attack/stroke and asked if I was having a lot of stress recently. The answer was a definite yes unfortunately. I had been having a lot of stress with my SO since November. His diagnosis: panic attack. He prescribed lexapro 10mg and also wrote a prescription for Xanax to take if I started feeling horrible again.
I took the Lexapro for a week but discontinued because the side effects were awful. I felt worse than I before - and I felt really bad then! I constantly felt like I was about to have a panic attack, well, I felt that way when I wasn't sleeping anyway, which was most of the day. On the bright side, during that week of taking it, I did get a LOT of sleep, and I slept well! (;
No more panic attacks or even feeling close to one after I stopped taking the lexapro. That has been almost 3 weeks now. Then my SO and I got into it again this past Sunday and Monday, and sure enough, Tuesday I felt like I needed to take a Xanax for the first time. Wednesday was still a little off, but better. Thursday was fine, but yesterday it started again and was the worst it had been since I went to the doctor. I've been feeling off all day today and taking Xanax.
I was debating whether I should take another Xanax before I went to bed but, like I said in the other thread, I'm now feeling better after reading some of the threads in this forum.
Phew. That was a bit long. Sorry!
I have to admit, it feels really good to be able to talk about this, or write, as it were, knowing that others understand what I'm trying to explain (hopefully anyway!). It is really difficult for me to explain just what this feels like to others and that is frustrating. I have to say that I honestly would rather have a broken leg than this. I absolutely hate feeling this way, and I so wish it would just go away. ):