Hugs to you too!!!
I do ok at times, I just can't let myself relax all the way, ya know. It's always in the back of my head waiting to POP. Then there are days and it's all I can think about
...what if this, and what if that. I'm waiting for it to happen. Who knows when or if it will.
I tell myself that even if the worst does happen I would still have a husband that loves me and three wonderful kids and that life would go on.