Well, tomorrow I go to pdoc and see what he says about
whether to stay on Paxil CR or try something else...the Paxil does seem to be working somewhat. The anxiety is not as intense as before and doesn't engulf me all day everyday. I still feel like I'm walking on a tightrope on and off thru the day, you know, the fear of the fear coming back strong all of the sudden...sigh!! When I'm feeling that way, I say to myself: "Come on anxiety! Come get me! I'm waiting!!" and I take deep breaths and try to remind myself what's going on in my brain and body. There's no REAL danger, just chemicals playing with my mind and senses! I resist taking xanax 99% of the time cuz I want to feel like I am making progress of my very own. Does that make any sense?!?! LOL!!!
I seldom have PAs for which I'm VERY grateful for, but the persistent anxiety can be extremely stressful and fatiguing! I am off of Atenolol all together now. It seems that it was aggravating my depression symptoms! So that's where I'm at right now. I'm better in many ways, but still confused to a degree. I'll let y'all know what happens after my appt. Thanks to all that care about me. It means so very much!
And Lyn, you are a living doll to me! Thanks extra much!
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.