I truely dont feel as though I have a friend in the world. I am afraid to live...I am afraid to die. I just feel utterly hopeless. This Anxiety/ Depression is worse and worse every day. I cant work outside my house, so I have no idea what I can do for money( was going to look into disability for mental health..but dont know how hard that is to get). I wonder if anyone knows how I feel. Most people have someone they can talk to( a close friend). I have no one. When my ex spouse left me and my two kids in 2002, I wasnt working, so I didnt have really any friends at all in whom I could confide and share things with. I live now with my mom at her place, and while we are VERY close, it is just not the same as having people my own age and with similar experiences to talk to. I feel as though nothing will ever be right again, and that I will never smile or be happy. Dont worry, I would never harm myself, as I just said..I am afraid to die
. I just wish I had never, ever gotten these mental illnesses to begin with. What is the point??? I often think....what am I to learn from all this, but I honestly cant see anything. Everything happens for a reason..but what the reasoning is behind this..I have no idea.
Well, sorry folks that I went on and on. I just felt the need to get that off my chest. Hope no one minded. I hope you all are having a good day and God bless!!
'I do not ask the wounded person how he feels, I myself become the wounded person.' ....Walt Witman
"Bear one another's burdens, and thus fulfill the law of Christ.".....Galatians 6:2