Anniversary of dad's death

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   Posted 2/23/2007 11:08 PM (GMT -6)   
Today is the anniversary of my dad's death and I've had such a miserable day!  You would think after 13 years, I'd be able to handle this better, but it always gets to me.  Yesterday was hard too, I always hate to think of it being his last day here on earth...he was estranged from the family by this point...his choice, so I don't know what he did that day, I wonder if he was happy, if he was in pain...etc.  It bothers me so much that he died alone, but at least it was peacefully in his sleep.  I miss him so much every day, but it just seems that much more painful today.  That day totally changed my life, my agoraphobia really kicked in and I became completely homebound for 2 years.  I think about all the things that he hasn't been here to daughter was only 4 when he died, so he's missed her growing up, we went on our first ever family vacation in 2005, he'll never know our little dog, who he would have just loved, and all the daily stuff that I wish I could share with him.  My dad was my knight in shining armor, and I miss his support and encouragement so much.  Just missing him and needed to vent...thanks for listening.

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   Posted 2/24/2007 7:15 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello Junebug
Honey I also lost my dad 3 years ago and my mom 18 years ago. It just seems to leave a big empty hole inside. When I really get lonely and missing them I pull out the photo albums and take a long look at the happy times we had. Sounds like you have a great daughter to keep you busy so enjoy her and she will pull you thru this. Big hugs and I hope this helps you out some.
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   Posted 2/24/2007 12:39 PM (GMT -6)   
It doesnt matter about the time past IMO it is coming to 28 yrs for first hubby and first yr for MOM on same wknd so hun I do feel your pain I am trying to work thru this and not having the best of luck either
Know I will keep you in my heart thoughts and prayers okay that we shall find some comfort all of us knowing they are out of pain and in a beautiful hate free world ya know
Hang in there we are with you sweetie
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   Posted 2/24/2007 8:57 PM (GMT -6)   
Going through the death of my own father at the moment.  We really are not able to do anything but love.  I am so sorry you are still dealing with this.  He will always have love and guidance for you....keep him close to yoir heart and be happy.

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   Posted 2/24/2007 10:45 PM (GMT -6)   
I thought I had already posted on this but I guess not...

Sorry you are going through all this...hang in there...we are here for you...
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   Posted 2/25/2007 7:13 AM (GMT -6)   
Thank you all for replying to this, I'm sorry that we are all in the same matter your age, it's hard to lose a parent!  I'm feeling better about it now, it just takes a couple of days to let it all work out.  You hang in there meg, I'll be thinking of you! 
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