Hello.. my name is Skeeter and I am 48 years old. I found this message board and am hoping it is a place to find support and encouragement. Sometimes I don't now if talking about it helps or if it is best to try to fight it and not think about it so much.
I have been suffering with anxiety and depression the past several months. It got real bad back in December. I am doing much better, but am still having trouble with morning anxiety. It goes away once I get up and get moving, but during that morning time I feel like I am never going to get better.
I have never had to take medication and been healthy all my life until I went through a lot of tramatic experiences and changes during a short lenghth of time. I don't know if going into all those things is good or just focus on getting better.
I was the kind of person that always helped everyone else and gave advice. This is very humbling to go through. I want to be myself again.
I have worries about medications. I am taking zoloft in the mornings and the doctor put me on Klonipin at night. I was so worried about taking the Klonipin. I was raised that you didn't depend on medication. I had tried other medications first, but had a terrible reaction to seraquel. I think that is what made more anxious. My doctor put me on 1 mg at night not only for sleep but anxiety. I take anywhere from 1/2 to 1 mg. I went literally months without sleep and got really manicky. I remember 7 weeks ago when I took the klonipin I had my first night sleep . If I could get over having to take the medications and get through that morning anxiety I would be doing much better. I am so afraid of building up tolerance, addiction, even though my doctor keeps saying at that dose I wouldn't. Any advice and encouragment is appreciated. I am sorry this is so long, but wanted to give y ou and idea of who I am and where I am at.
Thank you for reading.