I have the same problem. Then extreme derealization follows when I ponder these same thoughts.
My recommendation to you is to not think about
them ALONE but to discuss them with someone else that you trust.
I talk about
these thoughts with my sister; and we almost make up our own philosophies. It helps to know that not only am I having the derealization during these questions me and her ponder; but she too has the derealization.
Derealization is the feeling of basically unreality. Everything starts to feel fake, the world around you is not how you would normally think it should be, and you feel like your in a bubble or you're not really there. I don't know how to describe it exactly, but I've had it for 9 years, and it is not fun.
*BIG HUGS TO YOU FLOATING*
Know that you're not alone!
And welcome to Healing Well.
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."
DX: Panic Disorder, Depression, TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder), Chronic Migraines
RX: Lorazepam (1 MG a day), Lexapro (20 MG a day), Tylonel for the TMJ and Migraines