I believe Darren has said many great points here and I do agree with him on those points
I dont like the word dormant either but really it is the best way to describe the way your condition could /must have been
I believe you suffer from both as Darren has posted they often do overlap one another
A few months back I had not really dealt with moms death and was very depressed about
recent decision to have hubby move out and many other things
I went into such a depression and a hole that was so deep I never thought I would be able to climb out of it
I scared my daughter Cait as I would sit for hours and stare into space not talk,eat .... nothing and I also had Normal ( mod) scared as well ( she is like adopted daughter met her personally at Christmas.stayed with us here) anyway most of all I scared myself to the point that one morning I just broke and I mean broke I was so ANGRY n FRUSTATED at self for everything that I was letting go on ......
I had to ask Cait to leave as I was afraid I would do somethng stupid and it could or would scar her for life .....I had never felt like that ever and I have had this for 30 plus ys ( a/p)
I called the docs office at I believe 1120 am and explained what was going on I was in by 1145.......
He told me I was right in getting there as soon as I did he asked me IF I wanted to be hospitalized which I said no to and then he gave me alot of good talking and input........I cried for over an hour in his office non stop..( I have a disease called crohns and PG as well as another very serious one I dont talk about
to many and not on the boards)
My doc is very good with us all he has empathy and truly cares which I am so thankful for ......
.....Okay fast forward I know what the depression is like NOW and I never ever want to be back where I was again......
I feel you pain and frustration in your post .....
I have anxiety it dont have me anymore
I now refuse to be a victim and I have learnt many self help and coping skills to come this far in a few months
I had to for my own peace of mind /safety and for my daughter.....
Personally most of your symptoms do sound A/P related and I am sure the depression does overlap it
I am so glad you have a very supportive B/F and now you have us as well
NO worries on your post
VENT when you need to for sure ........it helps as does the input after IMO
It just helped me by answering your post ya know
I hope I have helped a lil bit here
Take care and keep us posted on how you are doing please......
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