Thanks, Dawn - your words help alot. I've been doing the same thing too - asking God to just let me relax and accept whatever comes - because I KNOW that I make things 1000 times worse just by the way I anticipate them - and I always anticipate them being bad. As far as drs. are concerned - I feel the same way too - they really have little patience for those of us with anxiety, etc. and especially health anxiety - they just push pills at us and hopefully we'll go away...the dr. I have now (only went to him that once with the high BP) is a very nice guy - I actually like him very much - and he makes a sincere "attempt" to be concerned - but I know it's all superficial because I wrote him a lengthy letter about
a family issue I'm dealing with two weeks ago and he's never even responded....probably just thinks "oh that crazy neurotic, always making a big deal out of nothing." So my faith in docs is about
as high as yours. Also, since you're very into natural meds, vitamins, etc., do you know of anything that's "supposed" to help lower BP or calm your nerves? I am a VERY jittery, nervous type and even drinking one cup of caffeinated coffee can send me into a high-anxiety tailspin. And I don't like taking meds either - I do take the BP med, Toprol, that he prescribed last year and I must admit it seems to help - but for the most part I'm also med-phobic so it would be nice to try some natural cures for once. I'm so sick and tired of being such a "wimp" about
everything - if I could ask God for just one gift - it would be the gift of courage. I admire courageous people so much and would love to have a little of it myself - docs especially hate wimpy people I think because, justifiably, they see so many people with life-threatening diseases that they probably have little patience with hypo's like me.