Well, it looks like I will be hosting my hubbies Easter family gathering this Friday. He has a rather large family.[compared to mine, anyways]. I am the type of person that likes to have my house perfect when I know that people are coming over. One reason why I don't like it when people just drop by, cause I'm not ready!
I agreed to host it because the sister that normally has it has just finished radiation treatments for her breast cancer, plus, she has 2 sons getting married. One this month, and the other in June. So needless to say, she has her hands full!
Typically, this gathering is just as huge as our Christmas one is. Dinner, snack, supper, snack. Food food food food. Cleaning up, make a mess, clean up and the men sit in their comfy chairs and just enjoy them selves! Not that I have a problem with that of course,
I've been trying really hard to not let this get out of control for me. I'm not overly worried about how my house looks, but each day I've been doing some cleaning here and there[a good way to utilize some of those anxious feelings, I am finding!] I also said if the gathering was at our house then it would have to be different this year. one meal only, and of course, we have to have a snack before every one goes home. Paper plates and plastic cutlery/cups are on order too. I also said we should have a cold plate too, salads, cheese, etc, something that doesn't have to be kept hot.
Guess what! They AGREED! Who says tradition can't be changed!
My anxiety just recently reserfaced 2 wks ago, and I guess I realized it was something that I've been dealing with for years, just not knowing it. With the extra Clonazapam my dr gave me to take until my Buspar starts working, I've been doing pretty good. Cleaned some areas of the house that hadn't been done since we moved in to it[fall of '02]
I'm pretty proud of myself!
Hope you all have a great Easter! He Is Risen!
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Clonazapam .25mgs, Oxy IR 2.5-3xs/day 5 mgs at bedtime, Synthroid, Zopiclone, flexeril or baclafen,tapering off L-tryptophan, starting Buspar :X
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Daughter Jerica 17, Dx: Crohn's, Imuran 150 mgs, amitriptyline 20mgs, lactaid pills, calcium 1000 mgs/day. Forvia, waiting for first Remicade infusion
Husband with treatment resistant depression Effexor-900mgs