This is my first time posting here, but I've been reading other alot of the posts and have found it helpful just to know how many others ther are with anxieties.,
Anyhow, I recently stopped taking Paxil which I've been on for about 12 years. Its' been very helpful in taking the edge off of anxiety and letting me enjoy myself more. I've tried stopping taking it several times, but after a few months restart it again because I get more anxious and that makes me depressed and insecure. I stopped taking it again several months ago and feel anxiety building again. I recently heard about cbt and ordered a book by David Burns. Also want to try nutritional therapy, like b vitamins and am going to see a Naturopath.
I had an experience several days ago that upset me alot. I was in yoga class and everybody was chatting comfortably with each other before class=I was new. - someone asked a question and I thought I'd risk responding out across the room. Everybody listened, I didn't feel anxious when I spoke, but afterwards everybody stopped talking and just sat there. I felt all these horrible things, that it must have sounded strange, I looked strange etc etc etc, the usual negative self-talk... I lay down on my matt, and started to feel "buzzy" in my body and head and my stomach lurching. Even the instructor remarked how unusual it was for that particular class to be quiet.I fought the impulse to get up and run out in tears and made myself stay. I stayed on through the next 1 1/2 hr and did the yoga, it felt very painful. Everything the instructor said sounded like she was saying I'm a baby. She was talking about facing ones' fears, and I felt she was talking about how I dont' face my fears, I need to push through, everybody else does. I felt so weak. I must have manufactured these thoughts myself, but they feel so real.
Does anybody have any comments or similar experiences?