Well had a slightly weird weekend,
Went out with my bf and his sister and her bf to the bowling in our town.
Me & my bf got on great and we had a good time, up until his sis and bf started arguing, I felt soooo awkward and wanted to cry!
Really don't know why though!
Then throughout the weekend I have been really teary for no reason!
On Sat me and my bf had a fall out, over something stupid, me not wanting him to go out clubbing. Anyway anytime we have one of our little arguements, I always think NOOO this is the end of us blah blah, and any little thing seems 10000 times bigger than it is, basically I tend to make mountains out of mole hills, I get really down when we argue I mean majorly. I just feel like giving up when I get that down. We made up though and had a really long talk, hes been really trying hard since, but still I don't really appreciate it. I want to but I just don't know how to at the minute.
Then on Sunday we were watching Stand by me, the film, at the end of it I started crying..as I do. But usually it'll calm down 2 mins after the films finished, but oh no not that night! I sat and cried for near enough half an hour afterwards. And I mean howling. My bf looked amazed. He didn't know what was wrong with me as I was fine one minute and bawling my eyes out the next! He cuddled me so tight I thought I was going to burst but I still didn't calm down any more.
Then! This morning I was rushing around trying to get ready for work, but couldn't find my hairbrush or trousers and some other stuff. I just felkt inside that I went limp and cpouldn't be bothered even trying and I basically sat on the edge of my bed for 5 mins just sitting in a daze. I felt that way a few times this morning. Just like pffft stuff it. And falling out with myself.
Then! I know another one! I was sitiing on the bus, and thinking through an important call I had to make today. I couldn't make sense of what I was saying though. I was trying to say 'will there be any becoming free' but I kept saying in my head will there any be becoming free. And I knew it sounded wrong, but at the time I din't know WHAT was wrong with it.
So...another stormy weekend for me again...is this the depression too??