I had a complete episode today - completely lost it - literally. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea.
It is so F#$*&G typical that I'd write this glowing entry of being off meds and then lose it. It explains a lot that's been happening lately - my $$ spending, picking fights, etc.
I am so upset. I feel that my choices are between "this sucks" & "that sucks". Take meds and feel nothing, put up with situations that I'm not happy with because I'm medicated
don't take the meds and lose my sanity.
This doesn't seem like much of a choice to me. If my Zoloft dose is lower, would it still work? Would I be able to feel things like a human being?
I have a call in to my MD and a counselor and waiting for both to call back. I don't have health insurance which makes things a bit challenging.
My husband had to literally walk out door to go to work after this happened. He parked me in front of the TV, told me not to answer any calls except his & the docs and will call me during his lunch break.
I don't want to call anyone because every one's got their own problems - my cousin is looking for an oncologist today, my mom is 2000 miles away and she can't do anything to help but worry, my girlfriend is having an emergency root canal, ad naseum...
Also, How does one distinguish from anxiety disorder and the chaos that happens when stopping meds...and Bipolar disorder?
Post Edited (lmcd) : 5/14/2007 2:32:12 PM (GMT-6)