I miss my pdoc already.

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   Posted 5/19/2007 6:38 PM (GMT -6)   
Since being in hospital I've been seeing my pdoc weekly, but this week he's gone o/seas for a conference for a couple of weeks.
With my new meds my pms has improved this month but yesterday was very stressful as we're closer to getting a buyer on our house so we went looking at builders. While the move and building a place exactly as I want are something I really want the stress by mid afternonn had me as a sobbing mess for hours. I tried talking to hubby but he just doesn't get it.
I miss my pdoc as I know we're well into the CBT and I could bounce off my bad feelings by working out the logical answers with him. I know deep down I'm not going insane but I was so scared yesterday. I'm up to the part of therapy where I'd be saying a sane person couldn't get a house ready to sell, a sane person couldn't work out a building budget etc. I tried it by myself but I'm still at the reassurane needed stage. I was tempted to take a small amount of largactil just to even the thoughts out but didn't, I don't know whether that was a smart move or not.

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   Posted 5/20/2007 5:52 PM (GMT -6)   

at the risk of seeming unkind,  cant you discuss this with your husband? if not write husband a note and ask him questions

we shouldnt fall in love with our psychiatrists or become emotionally dependant on them

its to their advantage if we do, as they have credit card bills, mortgages, etc and like to have a supply of regular patients with the regular money they bring in

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   Posted 5/20/2007 10:29 PM (GMT -6)   
No hubby doesn't understand and all my friends that do are ill as well so I don't want to upset them. I ended up ringing the crisis team when I sank really low and bounced my thoughts off them.

I know I'm getting better but it's baby steps forward and I'm still not at the level of fully trusting my own logical thinking, but hopefully I'll get there soon.

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   Posted 5/21/2007 9:45 AM (GMT -6)   
My thought and prayers are with you AA
I know when my Doc is away I miss him to he is the only one that understands what is going on with me and all my illnesses ( a couple I do not bring to forum)

I hear ya hun


AND no Harry I am not in LOVE with my Doc thanks .....lol
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   Posted 5/21/2007 4:43 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks Lyn,
The last couple of days I've sunk really bad so I'm going back into hospital for a tune-up. Hubby wants me to start another sort of med, but my body has been so chopped and changed over the last 6 months it just needs time for the current med to kick in and the old meds to leave me. Afterall how will I know what meds doing what if I keep adding and subtracting them.
I'm hoping it's just for a week to sort some things out and rest, we now have 2 serious parties in our house, hubby wants to build when we sell which means finding a place to rent with kids and dogs and going through our hopeless council etc. The thing is it'll be left to me to organise all this (no matter how bad I am, because I'm still the stronger one) and the packing and running around so I want to re-charge my batteries as well.
I feel guilty leaving the kids, but listening to them screaming , crying and banging about in the last 10minutes is enough for me to realise a break is exactly what I need.
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