Since I don't know you I can't say for sure whether you're crazy or not, but I really doubt you are! Harry's right. I've read extensively about
anxiety and panic disorders...they do not affect the brain like psychotic illnesses do. Completely unrelated. I used to worry about
devolving into a crazy person as well, but Harry pointed me in the right direction on that one.
You'll be okay. It's a war and you have to fight one battle at a time. I'm not a psychologist or psychiatrist, but I swear to God that if someone were to see my Grandma, they'd diagnose her with a pretty serious anxiety disorder. She's 84 years old and can remember what happened last week BETTER than I can. No kidding. She's sharp.
If she can do it, I can do it. You can do it. We all can live long and rewarding lives with this crap. It just takes a little more effort. But that effort can be rewarding at times, too. Just never give in to it.
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