I know this has been discussed before, probably by me. But I'm going to discuss it again.
This holiday weekend I didn't sleep much. Not because I couldn't, but because I just didn't feel like it. I went to bed very, very late at night and woke up fairly early in the morning. Still, throughout it all I managed to feel pretty well until today.
Last night I felt that I had reached my threshold and intended to go to bed early, but one thing led to another and I did not. Bad, bad mistake. Somehow I managed to wake up on time this morning but I was very "off". Exhausted, cloudy in the head, but not anxious. I got in touch with work and told them I'd be in after ate lunch, thinking that the lunch would snap me into shape.
Instead I must have fell asleep sometime after eating, right here at my desk. I did not wake up until sometime around 5:30. And when I woke up I finally felt rested, but EXTREMELY anxious. I've been on the precipice of a panic attack ever since. Right now I'm just waiting for my next Klonopin dose, roughly 30 minutes from now. At this point I think it's the only thing that can calm me. The bad part about
it is that it doesn't have a quick onset. For me it takes up to two hours to take effect, so I'm considering taking it sublingually for the first time. I don't like medicine and I hate doing anything that's off the label. I realize that taking it under the tongue will make it work faster, but will it compromise its strength in any way? Longevity?
Anyway, from those of you who still experience severe anxiety and panic attacks, do whatever you can to get enough sleep. My whole body is confused right now and it's causing me big time trouble.
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