This is an issue that has been bothering me for awhile now, and since everyone I seem to ask in my personal life can't give me a straight answer I figured I would get some opinions from another source. Here's the situation....
My anxiety attacks have pretty much tapered off as of recently. Every once in awhile my anxiety level will rise but haven't had a full-blown PA in weeks, but at the same time I also haven't eaten any solid food in weeks either due to eating anxiety(scared of having something solid on my stomach/digestion) thus I've been on a strictly liquid diet of water, tea with plenty of sugar, or gatorade. It's unhealty I know, but at least it allows me to function enough to go to my counseling sessions to try and get better. The problem is: One of my major stressors at the moment is the fact I don't have a job. My girlfriend has been working extra hard at her job and my parents have been lending me money but I don't want to put them through that burden along with me being sick. A friend of mine recently called me and said there was a job waiting for me (I haven't told this friend of mine about my situation in detail yet).
So should I go ahead and take the job or not? I'm thinking that maybe, MAYBE if I get to working I can focus my energy and attention on something other than my physical problems. It'll be a source of income so that stress can be lifted, and hopefully while I'm working I might be able to eat a little something solid and then turn my attention away from my digestive hypervigilance long enough to get some decent nourishment. But on the other hand, I don't want to go out and try to work an 8 or 9+ hour shift, outside in the heat no less, with so little energy in my body. I don't want to pass out on the job or anything like that, and honestly as of late if I'm outside in the heat for too long I feel like I'm going to pass out. I also don't want to start working and realize I just don't have the ability to work to my full potential because I can't eat. My job record is pretty good for a young guy and I don't want to screw it up.