Hi and thanks for your replies.
You are such a caring bunch of people.
I am on cymbalta 60mg at the moment for my depression and that is it. My anxiety and panics are increasing so i think i might need something for that.
I do have a pdoc but i dont see her often as i have a social worker, she is lovely and i see her every 2 weeks. I started therapy a little while ago (CBT) and have a male therapist, he is nice and i see him every week.
I am having problems with that as i have to start expressing my feelings to someone else and that is so hard for me. I sit in the room with him and i dont talk alot and cant even give him any eye contact. My stomach feels funny and i feel like i am going to be sick, my body just feels all funny and it is horrible. But my therapist knows all this and we are trying to work on that.
I am finding every day living really hard due to depression anxiety and panic attacks.
I also have my son (12yrs) to cope with, he has aspergers syndrome and adhd. He gets physically violent towards me and the verbal abuse is terrible.
His understanding of situations is poor and he copes with it with violence.
My 10 yr old daughter has a lot to cope with due to the situation with my son, she gets it aswell.
I feel its too much to cope with at times and i always panic that i am doing a bad job. i am always in tears and struggle to cope with the thoughts that go round in my head. (failure and uselessness)
i just want this all to go away now.
Thanks for listening.
Love and hugs