I am very new to this forum, or to any forum for that matter. I just wanted to let you know, and anyone else out there in your situation, that there is Hope. I was in your shoes approximately 1 1/2 years ago. I had all of the same thoughts that you expressed. You WILL overcome this. It will take time though. It may take medicine and it may take psychotherapy also, but you will do what ever it takes and it will work for you. I try to look at it the way I did when I was trying to get rid of the weight I gained while pregnant, (60 pounds!). I told myself that it took me 9 months to put that weight on, and it will take about the same amount of time to get it off, and it did come off. With hard work, dedication and determinanation. And guess what, it took about the same time frame to take it off as it did to put it on. Same thing with my anxiety. It took about the same amount of time to get rid of it that it did to acquire it! That may not hold true for everyone, you may get rid of it sooner than I did! But my point is, be patient, keep researching, take meds if prescribed, (I still do), go to therapy, be patient, pray, exercise, stay busy, keep pushing yourself to do things you think you can't, be patient, oh, did I mention to be patient? You can and will beat it!!!!! Don't forget to pray and TRUST that God will get you through this.
I'll check back in a few days, bye for now,