As most of you know, my doctor appointment is TUesday. As each day passes, and Tuesday grows closer, I become more scared. It is about
a 10 minute drive down the road, so that is scaring me some. It is also scaring me that he is going to tell me something is seriously wrong. I am becoming terrified. Today, I burst into tears for no reason at all. I don't want to sleep at night, and I dont' want to wake up.
I know I need to go to the doctor, and in some ways, I am looking forward to it, but because of my fear, I am starting to really freak out here. Tuesday seems to be coming too fast. I lashed out at my boyfriend this morning for no reason, and then just balled my eyes out. He understands, but I am mad at me.
I feel like all my symptoms are getting worse too. It feels hard to breath all day long, and my chest is more sore than ever. I am freaking out here. This sucks. I hate this. I hate fear. And, I am beyond a little nervous...I AM TERRIFIED!!!
Maybe I sound like a baby right now. I feel like a baby...as I have been crying nearly all day. Tuesday is scaring me. I keep wondering if I have the big "C" and maybe that is why I can't breath. Well, I can breathe, but it is just like when I use to smoke, I have to take a big breath once in a while. I keep thinking my heart is going bad and that is why my chest is sore. My anxiety is getting huge, and my health anxiety is OUT OF CONTROL. I am scared...
Can anyone tell me what the heck to expect when visiting this doctor. I am dealing with anxiety, sore chest, having to take a deep breath more often than I feel I should. WHat should I expect here?
Sorry to go on and on, but I feel like Tuesday is going to be like the beginning of the end or somethign. Am I crazy? Yea, maybe I am. Ugh, I feel like I am writing in my own personal journal, since I am answering myself and stuff.
Ugh. On another topic...I hope everyone had a good weekend! Thank you to anyone who offers suggestions here...
Dealing with panic
for 8 years off and on...right now more on than off. Major health anxiety
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now. I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
Best Wishes to all...Tammy