I can relate to some extent! I was in remission from GAD for many years but it came back on me with a vengeance in January of 2006. I hadn't been that bad in about
I'd been on zoloft (200mg) for about
that whole time and after some investigation on my own (hey, sometimes you have to be your own advocate!) I figured it could be that the zoloft had "pooped out". I'd never knew that a drug could eventually stop working. Anyhow, I am now on 75mg of Paxil and it has been a great help. I don't even take xanax any more, but can if I need it! I tend to relate my feelings of anxiety to whatever I'm doing at the time...for example, when I was anxious, I'd think of doing something and the idea would make me freak out. I realized that when I felt better, I wouldn't feel that way about
it and sure enough I didn't.
In your case, your fear came on you at a doctor's office and you relate it to the anxiety, but chances are that you would've felt the same way if you'd been in traffic or at your house or whatever! When my relapse hit me, it was in the morning when I first woke up! I had nothing consciously on my mind! I do believe that a lot of it is imbalances of chemicals in our brains. When the anxiety hits us, our own fearful negative thoughts then aggravate our feelings about
what's going on with us. It's a vicious circle!
Please do be
open to trying another AD. Some have been helped greatly by Lexapro, Paxil, Effexor or other ADs. If my Paxil ever stops working, I'll be looking for another AD right away!
Take care and also I highly recommend the books by Dr. Claire Weeks. You can find them cheap on ebay. I read a lot of self-help stuff but hers was the only ones I could seem to relate to. Others may feel differently. I also take Taurine, an amino acid that is SAFE (do research and see for yourself). It has been the only thing of an alternative nature that's helped me.
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.