Wow guys...I have lots to say about these comments!!!
I will start with you Harry...I didn't take a Xanax before I went, or take one with me, and well, I didn't need it. I was there for 5 hours, and I did TOTALLY GREAT! If I would have carried a Xanax with me, I would have taken it, and well, I didn't need it. I am happy I did it my way!!!
Liz, I do sound proud, and I am proud. I am making such progress, and it feels great!!! So you are right, I do sound proud!!!
Debaser, yes, you are right, my parents live across the street, and I could have came back home to get one if I seriously needed it. And, to be honest, my parents also have Xanax, but I didn't allow myself to think about the fact that they have em, that way I wouldn't use em. I want off em so badly.
Kitt...I went and had a great time! I didnt' have to come home early, so I am feeling like I am on top of the world now!
Tina, i agree with you, it is important I work at my own pace, and I am doing great at the pace I set.
Thank you everyone for trying to support me as I took such a big step. I am home now, 5 hours later, and feeling great about my accomplishment! I am not even nervous now, like that I am back home. I am getting ready to watch a movie and just relax...and it feels GREAT!
mystruggle...you and I will chat about this next time we talk...there is too much for me to say now! LOL.
Thanks everyone for the support...I HAD A GREAT DAY.
It is so weird how great it felt to be with my parents, and outside, and before we went there, John and I stopped at the store and the library...and I just felt so "normal" and good. And, if I happen to wake up tomorrow feeling kinda crappy, I am not going to get upset about it...I will just move on with my day and do whatever it takes to feel better.
I am on cloud nine right now...and I am not getting off anytime soon.
Dealing with panic and anxiety for 8 years off and on...right now more on than off. Major health anxiety as well!
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now. I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
Best Wishes to all...Tammy