Hey there Machelle...feel free to vent anytime!
Here is a suggestion...if you are loooking online to diagnose yourself...STOP. I seriously use to do that all the time, and let me tell you honey, it did nothing but scare the crap out of me DAILY. I gave myself EVERY disease known to man. I had cancer, and heart disease, and lupus, and fibro, and EVERYTHING. Because, with anxiety, all the symptoms could be there. It is a big NO NO. And, it is a hard habit to break, I know. You just have to tell yourself STOP.
I am sorry your family wasn't there for you, or isn't there for you. I know how important having suppport is. We are here for you though, and you can come here and ask questions and vent whenever you need to.
Times will get better. You say your husband is supportive? Lean on him, and get the help you need to feel better. And, come here often. Read old posts...when I first started coming here, I literally read every single old post there was available to me. It answered a lot of questions for me. And, don't hesitate to ask questions, or reply to things others ask. This is a great place to be.
Best wishes to you!!!
Dealing with panic
for 8 years off and on...right now more on than off. Major health anxiety
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now. I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
Best Wishes to all...Tammy