Well, I dunno where to start here. I keep asking Mom if she has heard from her doctor, and she keeps saying, No, that he hasn't returned her calls. I find that to be odd, since they called me after hours lastnight regarding me refill for my Lexapro. I am getting the feeling she hasn't called him, and that is irritating to me, especially since I am the one dealing with this bleeding wound in the middle of the night. And, it is affecting my anxiety. All of the sudden, I am feeling like my old self, the bad old self, the Tammy before I started taking the Lexapro. I am back to using a lot of Xanax...well, I took 2 the other day, and 2 today. But, the point is, I was down to NONE. So, this is frustrating me. I have no idea how to approach my Mom about
it either. How do I tell her I think she is lying???
As I mentioned. my anxiety seems to be flaring up. When I got my Lexapro refill, I neglected to talk abut upping it. It scares me to up it, but I dunno. I am thinking about calling tomorrow, and maybe seeing if I can get in to talk to my dr about my meds, or if he can talk with me over the phone. I am at a loss of what to do. I don't want to up things, but I am feeling myself falling down. And then I go back to needing more Xanax, or something like Xanax, and I have the fear of asking him for that. I guess I don't know how to go about any of this.
I am doing my best to stay postive, and work through this, but I can't help but feel frustrated with this. Things are starting to feel overwhelming again, and I am just feeling lost. UGH.
I am praying for a better weekend. My Dad is off work tonight, so if GOd forbid Mom needs help in the night, I won't have to go over there, since he will be there. She called me again at midnight last night, needing help. We didn't have to call 911, since I got the wound under control, but the point is, I was asleep, and had to go there. That isn't good for my anxiety...I don't really understand why.
Thanks all for listening...
Dealing with panic
for 8 years off and on...right now more on than off. Major health anxiety
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now. I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
Best Wishes to all...Tammy