Thank you all for the kind words. Means a lot to me, as always.
Last night was another bad night. 2 a.m. she called and was bleeding real bad. Took me about
30 minutes to get the bleeding stopped, which of course made my anxiety fly all over the place. The bleeding was so severe. It was gushing out of her bandage. (sorry to be so graphic) So, another Xanax was popped by me...unfortunetly, I am taking these darn things way more than I want to be. And, my doctor hasn't given me a new prescript
ion, so I am back to borrowing. (I know how bad this is.)
I left my Mom's at almost 3 a.m. and came home. I went right back to bed and tried to sleep. No luck. Darn tooth again. So, I got up and tried to sooth it. I ended up being up til like 6 a.m. Then, at 11 a.m. Mom called again. Dad was at the store buying supplies, and she was bleeding. I needed to go over there again.
I love my Mom and everything, but this is getting tough. And, I realize she isn't strong enough to be put to sleep, but I am so frustrated that there is nothing they can do adn this is how she, and we are expected to live. It is beyond frustrating.
Well, there I go, blabbing on again. LOL. Thanks you guys for listening. AGAIN!
Can I ask everyone to please pray that Mom doesn't bleed tonight. I am really tired. And, of course, she is scared everytime she bleeds. Thanks in advance.
Dealing with panic
for 8 years off and on...right now more on than off. Major health anxiety
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now. I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
Best Wishes to all...Tammy