OKay I have been doing some thinking and for me that is not always a good thing. I seem to think too much and to deep into things. Which causes some of my anxiety and stress. As of lately I have been thinking maybe I am crazy.
My sis seems to think I have a void in my life and I think she is right. In a way I feel like I have been on a hunt for happiness ever since I was a teen.
She gets mad at me and tells me I must be crazy cause everything has worked out so well for me, I should be the happiest person alive. But I am not. I have a hubby who is a really great guy, a good father and has a great job and takes care of me and the kids. We have a home, food on the table and I dont have to worry about money. We are not rich but always seem to be able to get what we need. I have 2 amazing kids that I love more than anything and I can give them everything they need.
I should be happy and I am most the time, I just feel like something is missing from my life and I dont know what it is.
I did have my kids and get married young. In fact I was Pg when I was 17 and got married to her daddy when I was 18 and we have been together ever since. I sometimes wonder if maybe that has anything to do with my void but I just dont know.
Then it all comes back to Anxiety! Could it be that ? I dont feel depressed, I mean I am not sad, I just feel like I am searching for my true happiness. Am I crazy? Is it anxiety? Could I be Bipolar? Or maybe I need a bigger change in my life?
Sorry to just go on and on like that. I am not sure if this is even a question with an answer but thank you for listening.
Sometimes it just feels better to get things off your chest.
Puttin' the Fun in Dis-fun-ction!