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Date Joined Jul 2003
Total Posts : 116
   Posted 8/10/2007 12:26 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi all, it's been a while since i posted....for the same reason as always, I've been busy/anxiety has been low things have been pretty good so far. If anyone recalls i'm 19 I've had GAD for my entire life. Coming to college was a huge shock, I failed my first semester before i picked out my classes, and dropped out halfway thru the semester. Determined not to go back i had a tearful argument with my parents witch resulted in my staying in school in exchange for them paying for me to see a psychologist. They followed thru with this, i saw the very inconvenenly located Dr. about 8 times before classes started for the next semester, surprisingly when classes started again i had no time to see her anymore (working and going to school, no time for a two hour bus across town) I did end up taking this class called college sucess, witch i, ironicly failed, but it helped me a lot in life and gave me a great deal of coping mechanisms. I did get an A in my Drama class, and a BC in art, i did not do so well in speech. When the summer started my parents informed me that if i wanted to see a Dr. we would have to find a new one b/c we changed insurence and the copay was to high...frustrated i decided against starting the serch all over, i took up full time hours at my job and after some time, got myself into a clinical trial for seroutinin (sp?) unfrountetly it doesn't seem to be working for me (or i'm on plausbo)

Work...witch had been another story all along, seemed to be getting to be a dependable part of my life, that is until last week. As you may know i have major self esteem issues and have in the past had a hard time with my job. I always try to do my best at work but sometimes fall behind other employees. As i have reached the one year mark of working at my job i began to feel less, as all of my peers had been promoted and i had not, this probably led to my becoming slightly more careless in my everyday. A few days ago i was taken aside by my boss (like all the way outside and in back) and explained that i would not be promoted, and that it was likely, unless i make some major changes, that i would not have a job at all in the near future. I agree with a lot of the things that i was told, but I also belive the deliverer of the message to be somewhat of a hot head, and in general she is not the nicest person. I was full out crying when she was done, and all i could tell her was "i always knew i sucked at this, but then again i think i suck at everything, thanks for setting the record straight" after that i went home, cried my tears, and decided that it was time indeed (as had been suggested in said conversation) to begin looking for a new job.

This job has been good to me over the past year, but i am ready for a change. I never really liked the job itself but enjoyed greatly the company of my co-workers and the interesting campus location, but i am ready to move on, perhaps even to work somewhere off campus where i can be more independent and get more regular hours. Almost no one from the original crew is around anymore, i'm not happy. But then again there is the anxiety of getting a new job, who will hire me with no references (I'm not using the mean lady who told me to quit) i don't know i guess i need to get my phone fixed first and then i can worry about stuff like that. I was going to do so much today, but the last few days i've hardly left the house,just too much to think about out there. As alway even just typing this message makes me feel a lot better and relize some things in reveiw that i should have seen all along. Thank you for just being out there, and especheily thank you if you made it thru this autobiographical mess. PEACE

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Date Joined Jun 2007
Total Posts : 11
   Posted 8/10/2007 4:59 AM (GMT -6)   
i suffer from anxiety and depression and get the attacks. i am having a hard time at this moment as well. i also feel like being on this forum does help. im glad there is somewhere to turn to where there are people who actually understand what im going through.

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Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 8/10/2007 8:16 AM (GMT -6)   


I am sorry you are having so many issues going on at once.

You posted coming here helps you, good, please keep on coming here and talk to us, we know how you feel.

Have you ever thought of journaling as it seems to help you write down your thoughts.  Also, I sense you may be setting yourself up for failure by a couple of things.  Are you setting your goals to high?  Sounds like you take on a lot and then you are already in the "I can't do this cuz I am a loser mode" Perhaps sticking to a part time job would be best and less stressful.  Start with fewer classes and topics you know your like.

I have faith that you will conquer your issues and that underneathyou are a strong person.  Remember, take babysteps and don't expect to be perfect, no on is. Just be you. :)

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*~* Not a mental health professional at all *~*
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"If you doubt you can accomplish something, then you can’t accomplish it. You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through.” 
~Rosalyn Carter


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