Ok, I am 16. I have been experiencing symptoms for 2 years now. It started out as joint pain in 1 or 2 places. Then, quickly migrated to all over. After I had foot surgery, 2 weeks later my symptoms progressed. I had some anxiety and depression.
Since then, it has gotten a lot worse. I don't like going places. Being around a bunch of people scares me. I don't like to go out. Or do anything I used to. I used to be very active and I played school sports and lived outside constantly. That has all changed over these past few years. Which you can imagine how hard it is for me to have to go to school everyday. I can't get up early without getting sick. Because, I sleep a whole lot and when I have school I can't sleep at all so that makes a huge impact on my day. And, I hate being in a class with people. I don't like being around people. I can't be around but 2 or 3 of my friends at a time. I don't like groups. Or speaking out loud. I have a really hard time talking to people in person. And I worry about the smallest things all the time.
Now, it has gotten so bad I often scare myself. I worry what it will be like if it keeps getting worse. I have been to many doctors for my joint pain and such and they have never found anything. I haven't told them about my depression or anxiety because they already think I am crazy and I haven't went back since it has gotten this bad.
Lately, I get depressed constantly. I worry constantly. Sometimes I am ok if I am very distracted. It usually gets really bad at night. A few nights ago I had a scare that was so much worse than anything I have ever experienced.
It started off like usual, just crying wondering why I always have to feel like that and can't be my old self again. I ended up in my bathroom floor in the corner in the dark crying, like usual. But, then it got much worse. I was crying so much I wasn't even breathing except every once in a while I would breath in very quickly. And I just had a lot of thoughts like I couldn't go on being that way anymore. I felt like I was someone else.
I would look out my door into my room and wonder who that person is that lives in that room. I didn't feel the same. I got really scared of myself. I had racing thoughts that really scared me. That has never happened before.
This lasted about 2 hours. It was really scary and I had never experienced anything that bad before. I just felt so incredibly scared. But, afterwards I felt like I was scared for no reason. It was really strange.
Sorry this is so long. I usually post in Fibromyalgia(although I am not sure if I have that). A friend suggested I post here, so I did. Well, any opinions or anything would be really appreciated. Thanks so much!