Thanks so much everyone for all the replies. Yes, it is nice to have a nice, safe, anonymous place to come to and post your questions, fears, etc. And I know I need, plus, I really do want, to find a therapist I "click" with. That is definitely a priority! :)
I am weaning off of Topamax per my MD's orders and I see her in about a week to discuss my medication "options".
I am hoping I don't need to be on meds for very long....I don't know why it bothers me, other than the possibility of side effectcs, etc, but I've just never been one to take meds, long term anyway. Medically speaking, other than migraines, I haven't had any physical issues. I feel a certain "stigma" I guess associated w/the anti-anxiety/depression meds. I know it's silly, and I know they help a lot of people. I just want to mentally, feel better, and if I need the meds, I need the meds!
Well, you all have a great Labor Day W/E! And, thanks again for your help! :)