Sorry that you are having a hard time. I've been and am currently where you are right now, with the not being able to get out much. But, I've also been to the other side, being able to go wherever and whenever I wanted, although not alone. You will get there, it takes time and is hard to do, but you will make it. I understand the wanting to give up too, but believe me, that's not much better. When you choose to give up, you are left to deal with dissapointment and guilt and the feeling that your life is slipping away, guess it's obvious I've been there too! Keep taking baby steps, I know it's hard, I know how extremely painful it can be to keep trying, but it's the way to freedom. I believe in you wen, you can do this! Let me know if there is anything I can do to help...maybe working together will make it easier for us!