I am having a problem. And, I don't know what to do. I am talking to my school counselor, and it helps sometimes, but I don't think it will fix anything. I really hate to say anything about
it all on here, but I am not comfortable with my counselor yet and I have a very hard time saying things out loud. I can write my thoughts better. So, here goes.
Some of you probably have kids and would resent them if they came on here to say what I am about to say, and I understand, but I can't hold it in.
I have a huge problem with my mom. She seems to be a huge trigger to my anxiety and depression. I love and all and I appreciate everything she does, but she is not a good listener and we argue a lot. She doesn't like to here what I have to say. And she sometimes makes comments that make me plunge into deep anxiety and depression. To the point that I want to hurt myself. Luckily, I have some self-control. I find something that takes my mind off of it. So, I can control myself in that sense. But, she makes me so angry. I really hate that I have to say these things about her, but it is truly how I feel.
I just don't know what to do. She won't listen to anything I say to her. She says hurtful things to me. And she won't take what I say seriously. We have never been a close family, like we don't sit at the table and eat dinner while discussing our day, feelings, and thoughts. I just want to crack everytime I am around her. I want to blow up and just start yelling and throw a huge fit. I would, but I would also get into trouble.
My point is, I don't know what to do. I can't stand being around her. I know that sounds so bad, but she makes me so angry and it hurts me so much. We constantly fight and argue. I try not to, but it just happens. I try. I would discuss this with my counselor, but like I said, I am not comfortable enough yet to open up any with her. I feel horrible talking to anyone about my mom, but I had to get it out. I love her so much, but I can't help these things I feel.
Well, thanks so much for being here. I am open to any opinions, thanks.