Yes Danxiety, I feel after my contract that will end in December, this year again I have to start looking for work. And when I talk to others they were hired after just 6 months or 4 months whereas I have been here since Jan. 2005. And now this is the 3 year and I was taken only on contract each time and every time it ended I had to start looking for another job and I could never find a permanent position or even if I find one, I couldn't fit in and would have to go. And then this place would call me again on contract. And I would accept it, as I have been looking for work. When I was called this time I was off work for 11 months! And I got it, when one of the people I knew in a previous department knew I was looking for work, she called me and was offered this contract. But inside me, I am feeling so exhausted of all this. Keeping positive is not easy
And the last time I was completely burnt! (I was so down and depressed) and because I didn't get medication on time from the psychiatrist I had, I really hit the rock bottom.
And when I got the medication it took a long time to take its effect.
So now when I go to work, I don't socialize with others much. I have always been a friendly person, but I am not that friendly here, and I avoid any social get together's. Not that I miss much.
Even today I was wondering why am I not hired?
I have these thought that somebody is sabotaging my chances of getting a job! This is causing me so much of anxiety
Sad & Angry
Life..... isn't it amazing.....
Post Edited (Sad & Angry) : 9/12/2007 5:29:15 PM (GMT-6)