Well, here goes nothing:
First of all, I wanna say thanks for the warm welcome backs I got on my other post! It was nice to be missed! You all were missed too. I kept telling John how much I missed you all and needed you all!!!
The move wasn't bad...especially since we were just coming here to the back apartment. There was some stressers here and there about different things like exactly when we would be getting the keys and things like that, but it all worked itself out. My lights and gas were no problem to switch, but I had issues with the cable, cuz we switched to direct tv, and that was a game, and of course, the internet. I was sposta be back on the 10th, and didn't get back on til the 17th. First they said there was no order, so that delayed it by a few days, then my phone line was messed up, and we couldn't get a dial tone, so the guy had to come out and fix it. I spent a lot of hours on the phone with them almost daily, and in the end I am getting a $92.00 credit on my next bill...(NICE) Now I am hooked up to the internet, but at a slower speed than I am sposta have, and they can't put me back to my regular speed til Friday...ugh...but at least I am online, ya know? So, that is the boring utilities story.
Now, onto me. I think I told you guys that my doctor upped my Lexapro to 20 mg. He was also giving me issues about Xanax, but he ended up giving me some...thank God. And, he suggested I go to a psychiatrist...he says they would be able to help me out more. I go Monday September 24th for what they call intake, and she said it should take about 1 and a half to 2 hours...then she said it could take up to 8 weeks to meet with a doctor...geeze. The fact of the matter is I am doing pretty good, really, although I am not completely back to me yet. I am getting out. I went to my sons meet the teacher...which took an hour, and I was alright. I started to have a panic attack, but I kept it under control. I went to watch him do his after school ice skating, which he does every Thursday after school, and I was very fine there. I go to my parents house daily, and I go shopping regularly. All this, I wasn't able to do before the Lexapro. Some of you might remember that I was housebound. Keep in mind too, I also did all that without taking Xanax first. Oh, and Sunday night, I went to watch my son, (Jay Jay) and boyfriend (John) bowl. They are in a league. I was sposta be in it with Jay Jay, but was too nervous with all my anxiety, and panic attacks, so John stepped in. But, I was able to go to the bowling alley and stay there. I did take a Xanax first though.
Overall, I am truly doing better, but I still have issues...such as:
I wake up shaky.
I am having a hard time staying asleep all night.
I am having bowel issues that seem to be causing me some chest discomfort as well, and all that makes me extra nervous.
I still have panic attacks...maybe one a week. Sometimes none at all, or sometimes, they are so minor I don't even care.
I still have to use caution about going places too far from home.
I don't know if I need to have something other than Lexapro...I feel the Lex has done so much for me, yet there is still more that needs to be fixed. I don't know. I feel best knowing I have Xanax in my possesion, and that way if I need one, I have one.
I am thinking I might need to be concerned about my bowel issues. I don't know if my anxiety is causing the issues, or if something else is going on.
Again, overall, I am doing better, and I have come a long way since I was first here, and before that. I just need to clean up these few loose ends to get back to being me.
Well, this is enough for now, this is pretty long. If you are still reading, thanks for the support you give, and of course, thanks for reading!
Much love to you all!
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now. I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
Best Wishes to all...Tammy