Welcome to Healing Well. I think there are many people who are in the same situaiton as you and feel the same way. Your right it is a Catch 22. I have no good answer for you but please keep posting here as you will find a lot of good members who are willing to listen to what you have to say and offer advice.
Again a Warm welcome.
Moderator Anxiety ~ Panic Disorders
*~* Not a mental health professional at all *~*
Dx: Anxiety/Panic, Depression
"If you doubt you can accomplish something, then you can’t accomplish it. You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through.”