Ok, I have class that is online. The actual classroom I am in is small and it is only one of my friends and our facilitator. She just started a few weeks ago and we hit it off at the start. She is an awesome person and she is very interested in learning my opinions and thoughts. I love her to death, but she thinks I am OCD. The room we are in is called the ACCESS Lab. It is a very expensive filled with laptops and lots of other stuff. It looks really nice compared to the rest of my school. So, I clean it everyday. It is a small room so when one person gets sick, everyone does.
So, I clean it with clorox wipes, every table and swifer the floor. I am really clean. I like things to be clean, in order, neat, and even. Things can't be off balance, it bothers me. I organize everything in the room except her desk!
Anyways, my teacher thinks because I like to clean everything all the time I am OCD. She has never asked me to my face it I really were, but once I walked in and started cleaning and she said,"You don't have to clean you know." I looked at her and she said,"Oh, I guess you kinda do though don't you." She said it like it were an uncontrolable problem of mine.
One day she had dumped the garabage cans and they were clean. I hate being the first to throw something way so I put my paper in a garabage can outside in the hall. While I was out of the room she asked my friend if I were really and "OC". My friend of course told me later.
Today, she was reading 'Readers Digest' with an article about germs living in schools and lockrooms. I was out of the room and she said to my friend,"I wonder if I should let her read this? No." My friend told me when I got back. The teacher started cleaning the white board and organizing it neatly into a chart. It had never been this way before, but I could tell she was doing it because she thought I would have a problem with the way the board did look. That is, not clean or organized. She is taking classes to become a teacher so my friend and I were helping her with a alphabet letter book she is making. When we got to the letter L my friend yelled out Lysol! Referring to me! My teacher then said,"The 'OC' lamb likes lysol." She was jokes about using it of course but she thought it was funny.
I am going through other problems such as depression and anxiety and such so at first her thinking that I am OCD was kind of funny, but now I think it is true. My dad jokes about how I am OCD. And now she does. I think I may be just a little, nothing over the top though, but my teacher is really pushing it.
I feel so bad. It's like she is making fun of me, but she doesn't mean it. She is a really good person. It shocked me that she even said that. She never says hurtful or negative things. She is just having fun with it, but with the things my mind is experiencing right now, I can't take her pushing it like she is doing now. It is starting to affect my progress. I am in counseling(she doesn't know that, for my depression/anxiety/panic) and I was doing a little better, but now that she is saying this stuff I can feel it. Normally I would let it get to me but I am going to tell her the whole truth and explain to her my other problems. She is very nice and understanding. We are really close, that's why she jokes, I know she doesn't really mean it.
Sorry about venting. My question is, is it possible that I do have OCD, even a slight bit? Thanks so much. And sorry this is so long. Thanks!