I was reading the post about OCD and that got me to wondering. All my life, people joke about me being OCD. I am extremely neat, and everything in my house has its place. I notice if even the smallest thing is out of place, and I freak out. When I was working in the nursing home, I made sure to keep all the residents rooms neat and tidy, and that certainly wasn't my job. I did it anyway. When I worked at the insurance company, and I sat at a desk all day, I kept cleaning my desk. I made sure everything was in its place. My boss kept telling me I had a problem. John is constantly telling me I have OCD. The thing he hates the most is the fact that in my closet, I keep all the hangers very neat, and a half inch apart from eachother. When I take an item of clothing down, I put the empty hanger in the middle. And, all our play clothes are on blue hangers, and all our work clothes are on white hangers. John gets mad because if he forgets to put an empty hanger to the middle, Iwill get up and do it myself. And, the blinds have to be a certain way, the bed has to be made a certain way, the shoes are lined up in a certain fashion. Jay Jay's bedroom has order to it that Jay Jay has learned to keep. I dont' have rituals and I don't do things a million times, but I am extremely particular about how things need to be. And, when it comes to my handwriting, I am very neat, and will redo something if I dont' like how it looks. John will sometimes do little things to mess with me, like leave a closet door open, or leave something on the counter, and see if I get up to deal with it, and I always do.
I have been like this for as long as I can remember. I have never talked to anyone about it. Everyone has pretty much always made a joke about it. My question is, should I talk to my PDOC about it, and is there something they can do to make it so I am not like this? I don't like being like this, sometimes it makes me tired. Is this something that could be seriously considered OCD?
I appriciate all the answers guys!!!
P.S. I am going to watch my son ice skate today....I will be there, alone, for 2 hours. I am going to take a Xanax with me incase I need it, but I am not taking it before I go. I wanna see if I can get through it without the Xanax....ya know? I will let you all know how I do!
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now. I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
Best Wishes to all...Tammy