Micha, I understand your anxiety about
this because I felt exactly the same way before I had my first colonoscopy a year ago. I had also cancelled one a year before that. I have had panic attacks before dental appointments and an outpatient procedure, one of which I was under complete anesthesia and the other only partial. (Do they call that "twight sleep?") Anyway, when the nurse brought me to little dressing room with my sister who accompanied me, I explained to her I was extremely nervous and afraid I'd vomit because I had done that before elsewhere. She was very kind and sympathetic and explained everything. Then, when I was on the little portable table with an IV started and wheeled into the procedure room, I started to feel nervous again, so I told the anesthesiologist (sp.?) the same thing: feeling anxious and afraid of getting sick, etc. She and the nurse talked to me, asked me about
my kids, blah, blah, and the next thing I knew I was back in the little dressing room feeling ok but tired. The nurse told me to keep lying down until I wanted to sit up and get dressed. I was ok. The whole thing was ok. What helped me was explaining to the nurses that I felt anxious and that I was afraid I'd vomit. They needed to know what my fears were so they could handle me correctly! I kept apologizing and they were fine and said they see so many different kinds of patients all day long! I believe they put some meds in the IV to stop the nausea. Some people are more sensitive than others. I get motion sickness from anything, so being nauseated has been a problem for me at times in cars, planes, rides, you name it. During my colonoscopy, I was completely out, which was fine with me. So, Micha, I just want to tell you not to hide your fears but explain them to the medical staff that takes care of you. Talking to them helped me through it and I'm not afraid to do it again.