Hi there girlfriend................you are always part of this family.
I agree with Lyn re "anxiety doesn't have you, you have anxiety" Does this mean you don't have to feel anxious and scared.......absolutely. You will learn to accept this disorder and to overcome the attacks.
I am glad you are seeing a Pdoc and yes there may indeed be other meds that work better for you than the Lexapro. Many people with anxiety and depression will take the meds for years and be able to go off the meds while other with clinical depression and it's partner anxiety may need to be on meds for a lifetime.
You will work together with your Pdoc and find how to accept this as a disorder you will have control over. You have so much to offer and you do a splendid job so use those same skills in deaing with the anxiety. You will overcome the anxiety. You have the grit needed and are up for the challenge.
Special Hugs to you
Moderator Anxiety ~ Panic Disorders
*~* Not a mental health professional at all *~*
Dx: Anxiety/Panic, Depression
"If you doubt you can accomplish something, then you can’t accomplish it. You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through.”