Thank you everyone. Dan I know exactly what you mean. I have been dealing with her going down hill since January. We have had her to the Vet and he has given her Cortisone shots and she rebounded. Each time she went to the Vet I would be afraid of the outcome and prepare myself but she always came home.
Now that the decision is made I am able to talk to her and remind her how she used to race around the yard and play with our cat Marty. They were good buddies. Dee would race out to the big pole shed to eat Marty's cat food. She would show in the show ring with my granddaughter 7 years ago and was an angel, never got out of hand. My Granddaughter was 10 years old at the time.
Carla, Your emails and words of love and wisdom have been salve to my soul, you sensed how sad I was and there you were extending a hand to hold. I know I have learned through you about letting go.
To the Other Mary, You are indeed sunshine in my life, your always there with a caring word and encouragement, you are so appreciated for your kindness.
To My Big Sis, You are my soul sister for sure. We have shared so much in a short time and you have taught me all about bravery. You always have time for me know matter what is going on in your life and your so wise beyond your years. For truly I am the older sister but you are the wiser. Thank you for being there and for your unconditional love.
I hope everyone who has posted here will think of Dee tomorrow around 3 PM as I kiss her good bye for the last time. I will stay with her and make sure she has her favorite blanket with her as she leaves the pain behind.
It is said the ones left behind suffer the most, how well I have learned that loosing a son and now a best friend, my Dee.