Jake didn't do very well last year, he barely passed some classes but he did get promoted to the 10th grade. So far this year, he isn't doing well either. Report cards will come out next week so I will know for sure what his grades are. But I've been in touch with his teachers via email and so far his grades aren't good. He's not paying attention, he's not taking notes, he's not turning all of his assignments. He has also been harrassed by some students at school, which we are working with the Guidance Counselor on. He feels like a loser, he has only one friend, he feels very picked on, and easily gets distracted by his peers while in class.
Now here's the dilemma (after ALL that I just wrote - sorry). I feel that Jake needs to be in a different school setting where he can excel. We basically have two options for that to happen - I either home school him or see if I can get him into the local Charter School which also has smaller classes. I made the mistake of mentioning homeschooling without thinking about it first (it just kinda came out of my mouth before I could stop it- oy!). Since then he has clung to that idea. If I were to do this, I would use the same curriculum at the school is using because we really don't have the money to go and buy a whole differnt set of curriculum. I have placed phone calls to the Guidance Counselor, the Superintendent, and the Director of the Charter School and I am waiting back for phone calls.
As you can see by his history, it's been tough for the last few years - which is a good part of the reason for the condition I'm in now. Please don't get me wrong, I am not blaming Jake in any way - it's just the situation that wore me out and left me with nothing to give to anyone, including myself. No, I didn't take care of myself during all of this - I was very, very focused on Jake. I had to attend many meetings, had to travel a lot each week, etc. Every time I had to admit him some place it would be in the wee hours before we got him settled and paperwork signed. I then had a 2 hour drive home and an hour later go to work. Please don'w think that I'm whining or complaining, because I'm not - I'm just trying to give the facts.
I saw my therapist last night and talked to him about homeschooling and flat out asked him if he thought I am ready to take on such a big thing like this. I don't feel like I'm ready - I think I would be too anxious to do this properly and the therapist doesn't think I'm ready because my moods and anxiety are up and down every day. What does anyone here suggest? I am open to suggestions, thoughts, whatever. I'm looking for some guidance.
Thanks for you help and support.
Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Mitral Valve Prolapse, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety and PTSD
Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Lexapro, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER
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