Here is my little bit of advice. Right now you're in a very anxious state. You're very afraid of what may happen in the future. Today, it wont happen. What I would do today is something, anything, that makes you happy. It might be really hard to do, but do it. Anything. The idea is to break the conscious thought pattern that is happening right now. You're ruminating on what you read, and regardless if its true or not, it's scaring you. So, please do something that makes you happy. Be kind to yourself and take some nice long deep breaths. Start to slow your movements down. Don't fight the anxiety, acknowledge it... Tell yourself in a compassionate voice, "I'm anxious and it's ok. I'm going to slow down". The key is to repeat this in a slow neutral or compassionate voice... Kindness to yourself. Don't read anything about that stuff right now, it's just going to add fuel to the anxiety. It's all about trying to relax, be in the present moment, and calmly do something that makes you happy or is comforting. Moving around, i think, is key... Taking a walk (if you can) and count your steps, walk slow with your breath, and when your mind begins to wander, label that thought " thinking" and start counting your steps.
Might sound odd, but I think it may do you some good. Today you are alive! Today is what is important. Right now, how you feel is what is important. Acceptance is key. Know that we are all here and know what its like to have such bad anxiety. Know that your reason for having this anxiety is ok too, there is nothing wrong with you... And how you feel is not rubbish -- it's all perception.
be good to yourself, you deserve it.
Anxiety, Panic Disorder, and Depression.
"We work on ourselves in order to help others, but also we help others in order to work on ourselves."
- Pema Chodron