yeah, i agree. Mike, sometimes going to the doctor isnt bad. Especially when your logical mind is tell you its nothing and another part is telling you "but, wait maybe it is". If you have insurance and the tests are covered, I personally would go and get checked out. The fear of going is the worst part, once you are there I think you will be ok. You can always turn around and go home, all that is ok too.
Take care of yourself, and you gave some good advice to yourself... Don't watch those medical shows, or anything that may trigger more anxiety. I hate to say stuff like this, but i think thats what gets ratings on television. The drama, the fear... It keeps people tuned in...
10 years ago my dad said, " I cant watch the news anymore...Its only bad things they report, and its started to really make me depressed to watch". He still is in touch with what is going on, he just found ways to recieve information that isnt something that causes him depression. I'm like that too. I cant watch those doctor shows, see scary movies, watch the news, its all too much for me... So i dont, and i seem to be better off. I think if something was really important for me to know, some one will tell me :) Anyways, good luck try and be in the moment. We're our own worse enemy (and best friend) and what you're feeling is felt by many of us... Its really tough!!! so be easy on yourself. Try to embrace what is happening (as bad as that may sound). You seem very in tune with things! If you can channel that same energy into some other thought patterns, you'll feel a lot better. I know thats stating the obvious and i know that saying something or knowing something is the easy part -- Making the change is so very hard, so please dont be hard on yourself...
One step at a time :)
Anxiety, Panic Disorder, and Depression.
"We work on ourselves in order to help others, but also we help others in order to work on ourselves."
- Pema Chodron
Post Edited (Danxiety) : 11/2/2007 1:34:35 PM (GMT-6)