First of all, welcome to the forum!
Second, you know you are not alone. And you aren't weak. I understand completely. I denied my problems for a while, until it got really bad and I opened up to a friend. She told me I had to get help and she started drifting from me. Like she was afraid of me or something. Since then I told one of my other friends, who has been through some of the same things, which I didnt know until I told her and she told me! But, I understand. I am the perfectionist type at everything I do. And the anxiety/panic/depression takes away from that. It makes me feel weak, but I have realized that people don't go through this who are weak. A weak person would not be able to go through this. It takes a special, strong person to deal with what we do everyday. You are not weak!
I have told a few people, most saw me as the perfectionist person, then after telling them they act like they are scared to be around me. I don't trust people easily. It takes alot for me to able tot trust someone. And to trust them enough to tell them what I feel inside and then they drift away and reject me, it breaks my heart. And most of the time, except my one friend, I keep it all inside to myself. Its even hard for me to open up to my counselor. I have been going for months, but I haven't yet developed enough trust in her even. So, it takes alot. But I keep going because I am strong. And you are to! So, dont worry about others, dont worry about what they think. You are still you no matter what. If they want to drift away, they are missing it. They are missing out on you. Its there loss.
So, anyways, welcome to the forum! I know you will find tons of support here! Wishing you only the best,