Success story (dont ever give up hope!)

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Date Joined Sep 2005
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   Posted 11/10/2007 10:09 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi all,
I just wanted to stop by here after a long time away to offer up some hope for people suffering.
Ive found on so many message boards (I belong to 2 or 3) that they are sadly missing stories of people who HAVE GOT BETTER. I guess when the problem has retreated people forget and don't come back and post.
I began having panic attacks in 1995, whilst travelling in india. When i got back home after 4 months away, i had a complete breakdown. I was severely agrophobic, was so panicky all day long i couldnt hold a conversation or look someone in the eye. I was having wierd tingles everywhere, sense of disassociation, panic, dizziness, numbness, insomnia, twitches, delusional thinking, inability to breath. you name it i had it.

After a month of this i managed to get myself to a doctor, who gave me beta blockers ( he said it was adrenaline that was causing all my problems - he never mentioned panic attacks or anxiety). They did nothing, and i had another few weeks of hell. I went back to a different doc, who prescribed prozac, just a months worth. After 10 days ago i felt something lift from me, and i started to calm down and feel a little better.

That wasn't the end however. I'd had no real help, advice or support and i battled my problems alone for a few more months. I did start being able to leave the house in this time though still feeling horrendous. My social life was nil - i just scurried to the shops to get essentials wide eyed and freaked.

One day,in a charity shop, i came across a book by Claire Weekes, called 'Self help for your Nerves'. I bought it, and began to read. Only now for the first time did i understand what was happening to me (id never even HEARD of a panic attack before), the process behind the 'circle' of panic attacks, and how to move on.

I'm rambling on here so i should cut it a bit shorter and not bore you all stupid! Over the next 4 years i continued to battle my anxiety, going back on prozac a couple of times. You all know what its like im sure living with panic disorder. We get relapses just when we think we have it sorted. I thought i'd never get better!
Anyway. I DID get better. Completely. It was a long road for me, with ups and downs and relapses, but nowadays i feel great. I even run art workshops for schools and stand in front of a class of 30 kids and teach! never in a million years did i dream i could do that when before i couldnt even go across the road to buy a pint of milk.

I just wanted people to know who are in the depths of it, that you can get over it completely. Its a different road for everyone, and what works for one might not for another, but you can do it. I reckon if i had had more knowledge from the start i may well have got over it quicker, butthen again maybe i had to take that long to work thorugh it all in my own way.

One thing that helped me was that i realised my whole lifestyle didnt suit me. I was living in a busy city, very trendy, a bit pretentious, with a group of friends who i didnt really feel comfortable with. i think i was trying to be someone i was not. I moved to the country and live a much calmer life in a small friendly village, and it suits me so much better than clubs, bars and trendy clothes shops. I know this cant be done for most people - a huge life change, but its worth taking a look at the bigger picture and whether the way you live your life is true to who you really are. I think we who suffer like this are sensitive souls and we need to go easy on ourselves!
I hope others will also post their success stories here - its so important to know you won't always be suffering. I wish everyone all the best!
Im an old member who's back to get involved again - i used to be just plain 'haze', but lost all my login details!

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   Posted 11/10/2007 5:19 PM (GMT -6)   
HI there
I do remember you and yes welcome back

Thanks for sharing your story

Glad you are doing so great

Posting it does help others as you know

Plz do come back more and keep posting

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   Posted 11/10/2007 5:39 PM (GMT -6)   
great story hazed!

Thanks for sharing with us.

Anxiety, Panic Disorder, and Depression.

"We work on ourselves in order to help others, but also we help others in order to work on ourselves."
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   Posted 11/10/2007 5:41 PM (GMT -6)   

Hello Hazed

I am Kitt and I so agree that was a very inspiring story and I thank you so much for taking the time to share with the all of us.

Keep posting.


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