Posted 11/14/2007 8:08 AM (GMT -6)
Hi all.Just another long term sufferer here :).
I have had anxiety problems since 22 and am now 33.My problems developed from smoking too much weed for too many years.If I ever knew how I was to turn out I never would of smoked the stuff.
Just happened one day I had my first episode and from then on it never left me.When I get it it will last for days or longer and it is constant from when I wake up to going to sleep,although at night it gets slightly easier.
I became very reclused from the dope, going from a very social person to a life of virtual solitude.The anxiety kept me in this state.I just never feel like doing anything.And I never REALLY have any fun when I do do stuff.
I havnt worked properly since about age 25.I used to spend the first few years up all night and sleep all day.Just on the computer playing games.Eventually I got in a very bad way and even tried to end it all.I lived through that and started to get ok again.I have tried a few diff meds.
The last lot I have been on is lexapro which seemed to do the trick,at least letting me live half normally.I would only suffer anxiety if I drank too much for the meds.more than 4 drinks.
Although situations would set me off.Usually anything out of my usual routine I would feel funny the next few days.It is like my whole body overreacts to the slightest things.Say having to go to a wedding.Out of my routine so it affected me.
I havnt dated since I started getting axiety.It all seemed too hard to do.Although through a friend I meet someone and we got on well and all.However she dumped me after about 4 weeks.And here I am again.I had feelings for her and sure I should feel hurt abit but im back to the constant anxiety stuff again over it.My problem is that I am on a high dosage of lexapro and I still have had this anxiety come back.
There I was thinking the meds were doing the trick but bam I feel crappy, more than I should do for a relationship of such a short time.I guess I will get over it again in time.But it is really annoying that the meds that seemed to be working havnt helped me in this matter.If something sets me off so easilly u can see how it would be hard to do new things for me.
Anyways I have just written a virtual novel here lol.Just adding my 2 cents.
I also suffer OCD and depression comes with the anxiety.Lucky me, not.