I have a huge problem, getting up for school is hard for everyone, but harder for me. If I dont get enough sleep, I get sick. When I do get enough sleep, I get sick. When I get up I always start to worry about going. I turn the radio on and listen to music to direct my attention. I tell myself how much I enjoy going to school. And for the moment it works. But the closer I get the worse it gets.
I ride the bus for like 45 minutes so getting sick is very hard to hold in. When I get into a pattern of getting up and going it gets easier. We have been off for a week so I knew if would be hard today.
I got on the bus, turn on my music, and since I like to paint, I looked at the different colors of the world. The different trees and everything. Things I have never noticed. It seemed to be working for a while. But the closer we got, the more I felt it.
I get a stomache, followed by upset stomach, I get chills, my hands start to get clammy and sweat-like. The longer I have to wait the worse it gets. Eventually, I start to shake, my legs feel numb, and I feel cold. My mouth gets really dry and I start to hurt all over.
As you can imagine, this makes it very hard for me to go to school. Most days I can control it. Or I just ride it out. But, somedays I have to come home. My mom drives my school bus and we eat breakfast together at school, so if I decide I cant go, I just go home with her. Thank God for that.
So, I just got home, I am still feeling very bad now. I hope I can feel better, because I hate missing school, but I cant go like this.
This has been happening to me since last school year. Only, it has gotten worse. The anxiety has gotten worse.
What do I do? How do I deal with it? How can I explain it to my mom in a way she can understand, since she doesnt really know the extent of my condition? I just want to be able to go to school and not feel horrible. We've all had an upset stomach and it never feels good.
Any suggestions? Sorry this is so long. Thanks for the help in advance!
Post Edited (TeNNiSd0C09) : 11/27/2007 7:29:00 PM (GMT-7)