I just need to vent a bit. My anxiety is in full force. I am once again battling SEVERE health anxiety, and that awful feeling of impending doom. I have a morbid fear of having lupus, even though my doc (internal medicine) and a rheumatologist have both confirmed its fibromyalgia. My doc is wonderful, and tolerates my badgering her...lol. But I cant get rid of this feeling no matter what I do. It once again has consumed me.
Then of course my GAD is in full swing also and I walk around feeling like something terrible is going to happen. I want to be happy, but even that frightens me...I know it makes no sense.
I take ativan as needed. I am hoping to get to see a psychiatrist when my hubbys benefits start up in february. But that seems an eternity away right now. UUHHGG....it just sucks...I get so mad at myself for second guessing the docs, but I cant stop.
I guess I better stop crying now and pull myself together....
Thanks for letting me vent
DX'd with Fibromyalgia in 2004...Seasonal Affective Dirorder, Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Panic Disorder in 1994...Hashimoto's for approx 15 years. Enough already!!...LOL