I am feeling completely lost and am freaking out, like I've been dropped off in the middle of a desert, and it's just easier to crawl into a hole than try to find my way out. I lost my job yesterday and I don't know what to do. As I mentioned in a previous post, I'm an office manager and I'm clearly not cut out for it. This job has caused me way more stress than I could possibly handle, and though it's not been the only thing, I know it's been a huge contributor in making me feel so crappy and anxious all the time. I mean, I feel anxious just being here everyday and I'm always scared of having an anxiety attack in front of my co-workers. My boss pulled me into his office and told me that I'm just not doing a good enough job and that I look stressed all the time, and spent 30 minutes telling me everything I've done wrong since I've been here, so I gave my notice before he could fire me. I've always struggled with my confidence, but that was a huge blow for me. Now I'm just filled with more anxiety and fear about what I'm going to do. I have no clue what to do now. I just want to crawl in a hole and hide until this all goes away, but of course it won't. When I told my boyfriend, he said, well, you better start looking every free second of your days. This should motivate you to find something else. And yeah, maybe it should, but I'm terrified to start looking. I don't know what to look for. I've gotten stuck in this administrative field because it's been all I know how do. I'm not happy doing it, but I have no experience doing anything else. I don't know what my real interests are, I feel like I don't know anything and I'm having all this fear that I'm not gonna be happy in any job, and I'm gonna freak out, go crazy, be unemployed, and lonely because my boyfriend and friends won't want to deal with me anymore!!! Please help!
Sorry this is so long, but as always, thank you for listening and providing a safe place to vent. You all are great!